I will keep trying till I get it right…
If I say that I have been playing a “superhero” trying to save the world, you would say it's a lie. Well, it is. Sorry that I have not been here for some time.
I don't have this fantastic reason why I took the time out. No. I didn't go to fight Nigerian kidnappers. Neither did I go on vacation somewhere cool. I just got overwhelmed with things and needed a break to recover.
The plan was to take two weeks tops and breathe. But we all know that things don't go as planned. I got discouraged from writing. Then my idea tank was not flowing with the right content I needed (or thought I needed instead). Everyone tells you it will be hard when you are starting but not this hard.
I felt that whatever it was I was writing was not what I wanted. Ideas come to me daily. But I still couldn't write. It's scary. I have held onto the belief that you should not call yourself a writer but just write. So not writing means I'm not a writer.
Another thing that bothered me and caused a setback in my writing was the lack of humour in my letters. People say I'm funny in real life. I make my friends laugh all the time. But when I try to bring spirit into my writing, it feels forced. I'm still figuring my way around this. And this month I'm ready to experiment more.
In as much as I write to make you think, I want you to laugh too. I was just sad that I was not giving my best to this writing so I disappeared and buried myself in works that bring in the money (Lol)
I missed writing to you. I’m here back again and better. While introspecting, I remembered the words Chinonso Nzeh said to me a few months before. He said, "You are more powerful than you think." I have immersed myself in his words; pushing every day to become the best version of my pretty self.
Perhaps, the new month is the sign I needed to come back to writing to you. Please accept your prodigal girl. Let’s get back, shall we?
You are more powerful than you think. May these words be the signal you need to pick yourself up again and keep moving.
With Love and everything beautiful,
Chinonyelum.
This felt like me a 100% 🥹😩
Welcome back
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